I can't stand it when people who know nothing
simply stand around and judge you for whatever you've done.
The frustration that built up in me
caused me to raise my voice,
but no,
they don't see it.
All they see is a one-off incident
that somehow suddenly
triggered them to do acts of "justice."
I absolutely hate it when people
whom I've no respect for
judge me.
Tell me
what have you done for this family so far?
Tell me
you've treated her with just as much respect I did when you totally ignored her
when she tried speaking to you.
Tell me that you've listened to her worries
and tried helping her cope with the issues she's facing.
Tell me that provided her with the company
and listening earn when she needed one.
Tell me that you've been the one
who's been caring for her
when our dad was mostly MIA.
Simply, tell me you're not an asshole.

So, no, you do not get to judge me
when I get emotional when I'm talking to her.

I'm tired of trying hard to be around and caring for her in place of our diysfunctional dad.
She's been trying to tie me to her apron strings,
always opposing whatever ideas I may have -
in fact her reply is so swift and predictable
that you could call it a reflex action.
Every single thing I do
is scrutinized and criticised by her.
You don't live in the same room as her,
so you don't know what it's like so, no, you don't get to judge.
You don't stay by her side long enough
to experience her verbal abuse such as
"Why are you so useless?"
"Why are you so stupid",
"Anyone with make up would look pretty
just like how you did in the picture".
So, no, you don't have to tolerate her constant assault
at your self esteem
so you don't get to judge me if I raise my voice at her.
You don't need to listen to her incessant nagging
and you don't need to be her regular dustbin
so, no, you don't experience the same thing as I do.

What I'm trying to say is,
you don't get to judge me
and act like you're trying to protect her,
when you simply do not care about her at all.
So I don't know why you're standing around
and barking like a stupid bitch
when your actions fail to show that you really care about her at all.

You do not go with her on visits to her sister in the IMH.
You do not listen to her worries about granddad and try to help her solve her issues.
You're simply not there for her.
You're not the life buoy she has been clinging onto to make her life meaningful.

YOU SIMPLY DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING.
AND PRIMARILY YOU ARE NOT EVEN QUALIFIED TO JUDGE.
PLEASE REFLECT ON YOURSELF BEFORE YOU MAKE A FOOL OUT OF YOURSELF ASSHOLE.