I never knew I would get this kinda happiness from tutoring someone.
It felt really, really great
when you knew that you could go beyond just managing yourself,
making sure you achieve what you want,
to helping someone achieve what they want.
This is amazing.
To achieve that,
you've gotta see through the person's eyes,
see what situation they're in now,
see what's hindering them from achieving their dreams,
see what's their strengths and weaknesses,
see how they leverage on them to turn dreams into realities.
Sounds like a colossal task.
I never knew I could do that.
At times, I wanted to give up when I'm overloaded with stuff.
The only thing that got me going was the promise I gave to her -
that I'd commit myself to helping her get through this horrendous A levels.
Each time I see tutoring as a burden,
I only return from each lesson feeling refreshed and accomplished.
I never knew such a small thing could amount to something great.
People ought to think I'm crazy.
But then again,
fuck you,
who cares about what you think long as I'm happy.