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//Monday, September 15, 2008 1:31 AM

The Mooncake festival

Realization of certain stuff comes in many forms,
at different times,
and often sneaks up to you
when you least expect it.

It could be when you are in your toilet
reliving your congested intestines,
or it could be when you are on a crowded bus,
squashed up against the bus window
by the overly chubby kid staring at you
with an annoyingly blank, pretentiously innocent
face as though they are not
the slightest cause of your commute discomfort.

Mine hit me while I was wondering whether or not
to consume a mooncake on the starry starry mooncake
festival night.
While weighing the satisfaction derived from
having the mooncake against the opportunity of costs
of it such as getting stuck in my throat and
in the process endangering my life( jus kidding.
i'll be more worried about weight gaining than
dying on a mooncake somehow.),
i suddenly regret certain things that I have never regretted before.
And for the first time since ages,
I felt foolish
for making irrational decisions
and loosing my focus in life.
I felt as though I had took a big U-turn
due to some irritating road blocks up ahead.
And I was the one who had allowed myself to
get into a hassle with these obstacles.

I could have taken a left turn
and avoided it
when my daily traffic news watcher reported
a possible wreckage there.
But I ignored.
Naively believing hat somehow
the road block would be cleared miraculously
the time I reach there
or somehow God just love me too much
to allow me to be stopped by this
or somehow I thought I was
Hercules and could handle this wreckage
with my inhuman strength.
Or I somehow fabricated hope out of
nothingness?
Or was it just mere curiosity?
Whatever it was, the verdict is still the same.
Conclusion is: Curiosity really killed the cat.
Never doubt the words of ancient wise old men.

Finally on this faithful day
I saw light
Im glad I did.
And Im sure everyone else too.
Who likes to watch a fool fool around blindly?
Through this
I have learnt a lot
A hell lot
Always trust my instincts
my gut feeling
my intuition.
When warning lights go off
stop and stare ( quoting from One republic)
and go to the left, to the left( quoting irreplaceable)
What's in front is reality
Paper can stand in trials
but feelings are just impalpable fleeting sensations
that we somehow can't deny their existence
but we can't prove its existence either,
esp in testing times.

Learn to be smart. Street smart.
Treat yourself and others with equal tenderness and kindness.
Empathy and sympathy should not be confused with love.
Clear direction. Clear aims. Clear life.
Be a sober driver instead of a screwed up
alcoholic who always have to take the back car seat.
Play second fiddle to none,
cos you know it's your life
you are messin' with.

Learn to love yourself.
Learn to love others as much as yourself.
But never give love out of pity.
cos you could hurt yourself.

Learn to be optimistic.
But not overly optimistic.
cos somehow,
the world is always not as good as you imagined,
but neither is it in such a bad state as you expected it to be.

Learn to be good.
Good to your mom.
Good to your dad.
Good to people.
But never let your kindness hurt you.
cos it'll make you bad.

that's all i guess.

My own reflections
on a starry starry
mooncake festival night.

P.S: i realised everyone's life
is going to get screwed some point in life.
It doesnt matter whether you're a child abuse victim or
you're the publicly labeled loser with multiple failed
attempts in business who declared bankrupt and have to run
from heavily tattooed loansharks,
it's just part and parcel of life.
It's the way we deal with crises that sets us apart.
The only distinction setting the Strong apart from the Weak,
the Successful from the Failures,
the Wise from the Ignorant,
is the emotional strength
and mortal courage to face adversity.
HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!